Monday, April 19, 2010

Already Gone

Something that I really struggle with when it comes time to PCS is being done when its not quite time.  By this I mean mentally checking out and finding myself not caring anymore.

Sadly I started on this path last week and its been a downhill spiral ever since!  It is difficult for me to care anymore and that is not who I want to be.  I don't like the process of PCSing and in the coming weeks I can't avoid it.  I do not enjoy preparing for the movers.  I do not enjoy trying to foresee what we will need in the next few weeks/months we are stuck in temporary housing.  I do not enjoy saying goodbye to friends. 

But this is my end of the commitment that Joe and I made together almost 7 years ago.  I committed to follow and accept the orders we were given by the United States Air Force.  I will make each place, whether its an apartment, a six-plex, a duplex, a house or even a hotel room (and yes we lived in a hotel room for 4 months!) our home for the time that we are there.  I may not like every assignment or location but as a family we will learn to live there and survive.  Because sometime just surviving is all you can do!

So for now I am resigning to return to Minot and complete our commitment here.  And I will try my hardest to enjoy it too.


Alysha (Supermom) said...

Stay strong girl. I am sure it can't be easy to move around a lot just know that things will work out in the end and hopefully you guys will be able to settle somewhere soon. Keep you head up!


Sue said...

You've got a great attitude. It can't be easy to move around so much.